Sound of Surviving Blog

I’ve always felt like in many of the churches I’ve been to, it’s best if you try to hide your flaws, your weaknesses, and your hardships. It’s like no one, especially not God, wants to see you at your worst. I’ve heard more than one person say, “It’s okay to go to God to ask for help when you’re down, but don’t forget to thank him for your blessings.” But I’ve always wondered what about when I can’t see those blessings, when I’m in the darkest pits of the earth, all alone, does God still hear my prayers? Yes, he does. Jesus died on the cross and rose again on the third day, for all of our sins. He covered every part of us, not just the whole of us, but our broken pieces too. I’ll always be the girl with the broken brain and missing pieces, but God doesn’t care. We don’t have to be perfect or put together to go to God. We just have to cry out to him.

It’s important to pray to him to thank him for our blessings, yes, but we can also go to him when we’re broken, disheveled, messy, angry, and hurting. Even Jesus cried out to God on the cross in anguish, broken and battered in Matthew‬ ‭27‬:‭46, “And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

He’s not afraid of or taken aback by our feelings. He wants every part of us, our tears and our scars included. He wants to light up the darkness surrounding us, he hears our cries to him, sees our tear-streaked faces, and lifts them up to him. He meets us when we’re at our worst, because just like us, our prayers don’t have to be perfect for God to hear. Unlike those around us might suggest, God sees the beauty in our broken pieces, and in our broken prayers.