Sound of Surviving Blog

It’s funny how what seems like the end, the end of the world, the end of your life, can transform into the beginning. Since being in the hospital for bad headaches and thinking I might actually be dying, I have been learning how to appreciate everything in life so much more. I am able to look at the world around me and see the beautiful things most people miss, as well as see just how amazing life truly is, how glorious even the most mundane things really are. I have been given a whole new perspective and a whole new lease on my life.

When God comes into our life it’s not like a file we download, it’s a whole new operating system. I’ve had a relationship with God my whole life, but I’ve never really embraced it until now. Over the last year, the devil has tricked me into believing his lies and into thinking that God doesn’t care about my problems. I’ve learned that God might not take away my pain and suffering in this life, and I feel like I’m okay with that. God’s plan for my life is so much bigger and better than anything I could ever imagine and if this pain leads me to that, I know I can get through it with him at my side. Suffering with Christ walking along next to us is so much more beautiful than going through suffering alone. He too, has walked this earth and knows each and every thing we’re facing, the anxiety, the fear, the pain, the betrayal, the hurt, whatever you’re facing, he’s been there.  I sometimes feel like an impatient kid on a road trip who keeps asking God (the driver in this scenario) questions: “Are we there yet God?’ “Why are we stopping God?”, “But God, I want to do this thing right now, so why are we going there?”, and so on. I am learning how to trust God, and how to walk by faith and not by sight. I know I can trust in Christ completely, as he has gotten me this far, and I don’t think he’s going to leave me any time soon. As David states in Psalm 140:7, “O God the Lord, the strength of my salvation, thou hast covered my head in the day of battle”. As much as we hate suffering, it’s God’s biggest tool. Our suffering is so much bigger than we are. God gives us the opportunity to allow us to use our pain and suffering to help others with what they’re going through. We can walk alongside of them, during their journey, as Christ has walked alongside of us during ours.  Every single piece of a painting contains the beauty of the whole painting. God is calling me only to be one piece of the body of Christ.